This is the 1st time he made me angry.

Well, his buddy made me angry before but I guess this is the 1st time I really angry.

For me to say yes, I am going…

It must be because I thought about it for a moment then agree.

Now, I got more cons in my mind.

That give me tons of reasons why I shouldn’t go.

And if people worried so much regarding how I feel, then can I ask how others feel?

For a gathering like that, even if I am totally fine with going,  will the people mind? Cause so what if I am alright, if I am there and people are not welcoming, then the result will be the same, and end up feeling unhappy.

So to solve it, while talking about it, I decided to fix myself a movie so that I won’t end up feeling unhappy.

I do understand where this is coming from, but truly, am I being understand?

Do you know how I am truly like?

I am now re-evaluating what I 1st though I know.

doesn’t make me happy.

The new year doesn’t make me happy.

For a start, I am having this mixed feelings…

And I think I need a rest.